So....I'm an ungrateful bitch

I know right, I didn't know either! These are not words anyone who knows me would ever use to describe me. But one of my nearest and dearest seems to feel this way. No he didn't actually use those words, but he might as well have. I'm talking about my daughter's father or "baby daddy" as people like to call it. We (usually) have a good relationship. We're friends who take care of the same child. This is how I like to explain it. Sure I love him, he's the father of the most precious thing in the world to me. How could I not? Do I love him that way? That's still left to be decided but every day I get closer to NO! Last night he told me he didn't feel like I appreciated anything he does for me. The things he's referring to are; helping me move into my apartment, picking me up from work a few days this week, and making the occasional repair to my car. Now don't misunderstand, this is in addition to paying for her daycare, clothes, shoes and anything she might need. And also picking her up every weekend unless he's working. I tell him "thank you" each and every time he helps me. I've cooked for him and invited him to countless parties and family functions. Everyone I know thinks he's the best father. He says he doesn't want to come because he feels like everybody is "laughing at the sucker". What it all comes down to is sex. He feels like he's the only "baby daddy" on the planet not having sex with his "baby momma". This is fucking ridiculous to me. I refuse to thank you and appreciate you by giving you sex. Are you kidding me? So I told him "Thanks for all you've done, but I will never ask you for another damn thing." And half the time I don't even ask him! He offers! He offered to give me the down payment for a car and I did not take it because I knew he'd find some way to throw it in my face. So it looks like these two "friends who raise the same child" will just be "baby momma and baby daddy". Sad but necessary.

In other news I get to see my girls tonight for our monthly book club meeting. Really glad we set that up because we all need time with the friends!